The World is Fair and Bright

In Minnesota and it's State Fair time. Considering how close we are to the fairgrounds, we thought we'd give it a try this year and join the throng of traffic heading to the Minnesota State Fair. I've never been to a "state" fair, though I have been to a "county" fair, and I can't say I was overly impressed. Beautiful bovines don't turn me on, nor does the whole $8 to get in on top of the ungodly expensive food, rides, and vendors. Oh well, for $8 I could see Pirates of the Caribbean again and I said I wouldn't do that, so I'll just think of this as insurance against a 5th POTC showing. ;) Nah, it'll be fun walking around and checking things out with Tricia, Chris, Karin and Mark. It'll be especially great to see Chris who hasn't graced my presence since the last dna show I went to back in the spring. Not much time til we head out so I better finish getting ready. I'll save half of my foot-long for ya ;)

Sleeping the night away

Wow, I slept a REALLY long time last night. I crashed around 7:30pm, waking up once when my housemate checked in on me, not realizing I had totally zonked out, and once when I realized it was 12am and I still had my clothes on and contacts in my eyes. Groggily, I half crawled to the bathroom, took care of my contacts, somehow possessed the motor skills to don my pjs, and sprawl upon my bed. I didn't get the motivation to get up until almost 10am. Granted, me out of bed before 10am when I don't HAVE to be is considered a miracle by some dictionaries. So I got a LOT of sleep last night, which enabled me to actually get a few things done today. For instance, I stopped by the campus and checked on my finances, checked email and chatted online, went shopping a little with Heidi, had some dinner from the deli, did some "homework" for class on Tuesday, and now I'm blogging! May not sound like a whole lot, but it took up some time. Oh, and I called Matt from EC, even though I wasn't sure he deserved it, because I'm a nice girl and thought I'd be a good friend and let him know I'm in town. However, today and tonight he's busy and then this weekend I'm off to MN!!! So no hanging with Matt until perhaps next week...maybe. I'm not going to avoid him like the plague, but I know I have to be guarded--he has a way of sweet-talking that I just don't buy into anymore. Not only am I currently registered as "unavailable," but he also fairly ticked me off at the end of the school year last year/the beginning of the summer with his whole disappearing act. Bleah, guys.

As for Craig, I talked to him once on the phone after he gave me a call, and we've emailed a bit. Talking to him online probably won't happen often with me not having an overly convenient computer to use and being gone at school all day. Still, we're doing okay about keeping in touch, so I'm not overly worried. I feel bad that I have so many things on my mind and I sometimes forget about him, but I'm trying. I'm sure he's running into the same thing, though I'm used to the whole long-distance gig. Of course, when I was doing it last time, it was after Mike were together for a while and knew each other quite well...and had professed our love to each other. At this point in the game, I'm not ready to profess anything. I probably won't for quite a while, not with all of this time apart...it makes for getting to know each other better quite difficult. And I need more time before I can honestly say I care that much for someone. I can't even sign my emails with "love" though he did, probably from habit or something. I just do the little "Katie :)" which hopefully says enough. It's all kind of weird, but still good and I think I can handle it just fine for now. When school gets me busier, it may be harder to keep the optimism, but then again, it'll also give me less time to think about stupid things and it'll get me through the boring or lonely times. And you know I can't help but look ;) Besides, I wouldn't want Craig to just give up looking either--you just never know what hand life will deal you.

I guess that's about it for now. It feels good to be blogging again, and I'll try to keep up with it despite the inconvenience. I'll just have to hope my students don't find this blog ;)

School days, School days, cold and boring inservice meetings...

So, maybe that's not how the song goes, but that's how the last couple days have been. Today was a little more interesting with doing more decorating of the classroom and figuring out the lesson schedule for the first two days of school next week. You may wonder at my lack of blogging, and for that, I apologize. I no longer have a decent computer with cable internet connection right at my fingertips. Instead, I have an old one with dial up, so I can't write much now. I'll see what I can do about stopping by the campus and using the nice comps with ethernet :) But, probably tonight I'll be too lazy. So SOON! For now, just wish me luck with those rascally 8th graders!

Prepare to fast forward! Fast forward! Fast Foward!

It's a countdown to EC! Tomorrow I get to pack up, make cupcakes, go shopping, hang out with Mary, Tricia, Shelly, and Amy, do laundry, and clean up my room--not all in that specific order of course. This is all in preparation for my move back to EC on Monday. From Monday on, this is going to be one hella-busy week involving meeting up with my cooperating teacher at Altoona middle school, going to a few inservice days, attending a seminar all day Friday, finally seeing my friend Heidi after a summer of no seeing Heidi, preparing lesson plans and a unit schedule and organizing the classroom for when school starts the following Tuesday, AND to top it off, most likely I'll be spending at least part of my weekend in MN to kick back with old pals :) I've missed you all! Especially you, Jenny, the slacker who never drove to GB to visit :P All I can say is that you better make your way to London once or twice to make up for it ;)

For now, it's time for bed so I can actually manage to function tomorrow. I HOPE my parents don't wake me up early...I can only hope...

Katie: Fridge Raider: The Ladle of Soup

Another semi-obscure and wholy absurd allusion. Tonight, after a day of calling in sick for work and proceeding to sleep in, eat chicken soup, watch TV and talk online, I went to see the new Tomb Raider movie with my brother. It was all I expected it to be and less. Having seen the first movie a couple years ago, I knew this sequel would be full of action and not a whole lot else. But, the choices at the movie theater tonight were slim and both Scott and I were in the mood for an adventure type movie. Unfortunately, for some unknown reason, a movie we both WOULD have wanted to see: T3: Rise of the Machines has left the main theaters and has yet to transfer to the budget.

Fortunately, a few good things DID come out of seeing this movie tonight:

1) Movie popcorn and my first soda (I got a white soda, so it's not QUITE as bad) in a week.
2) Quality time with my big bro.
AND...
3) Disney is coming out with a new movie, perhaps incalculably more gutsy with almost certainly more potential to be as crappy as Pirates of the Caribbean was excellent....another movie based off a ride. Only this time...no Orlando Bloom or Johny Depp. Nope, this one has Eddie Murphy...the poor soul. I must give Disney the slightest bit of credit for not making It's a Small World: Curse of the Neverending Song. The ride is...The Haunted Mansion. Dude, I remember that ride from when I was about 5 years old. It was only slightly creepy then. While watching the preview, a slight smile DID come to my face, recognizing some scenes taken almost directly from the ride--much as parts of POTC did--BUT, I'm just not sure how great this movie could be. Still, I try not to judge a movie too harshly by a preview--I mean, some movies have had great previews and it turns out that those 2-3 minutes were the only good parts at all. We'll see how it does at the box office whenever it comes out. Until then, I'll try to block it from my mind.

She's a light-hearted fool, look into her eyes

Okay, so it's a really mangled allusion to Paula Abdul's "Cold-hearted Snake" that only 1% of the people got when looking at this title, but I really don't care :P I realized while reading Jenny's updated blog that I really have been in the same confused and semi-upset mood while writing all my latest entries. And that, my friend, just doesn't work for me ;) Time to pep things up. BUT not now, cuz it's late and I have to be up in 2 hours...so not cool. but SOON!! soon I shall write something...amazingly light and fun and NOT to do with relationships--that will be amazing in itself! Until then! So long, sucka ;)

So I own not a notion

"I escape and ape content. I don't own emotion; I rent." Something like that. I'm really confused. I thought I knew what was going on, and now, I'm not sure. I thought I had doubts, and now I'm doubting that I have doubts. What happens if I doubt that I'm doubting having doubts? Exactly, who the puck knows? To put it more plainly, when I started dating Craig it seemed like a good plan. Then, I started having doubts about the whole thing, with the age thing, old feelings, soon to be long-distance, and differences all coming into play. But THEN, I have a night like last night when it's back to having a pretty good time and wondering if I'm just being too rash and panicking perhaps due to the fact that I might be afraid to enter a long-term relationship. At this point, I really don't know. I want to give Craig the chance he deserves. But does he deserve someone like me? Or someone who will understand him better? Do I see a future with him? Or am I "still looking for something more extraordinary than that?" I think I need to time to work this all out in my head. Problem is, will the distance this fall help me clear my mind or just add to the confusion? One of the questions in my mind that does plague me is: okay, put this way, would I choose Craig over someone else? And not necessarily someone I've even met. It could be some great guy I meet someday. Just WHAT exactly am I willing to risk? For now, I'm dancing between giving things time to develop and stalling--one minute doing one or the other. I just hope it all works out alright. ::sigh:: relationships are a pain in the ass. You'd think I'd have learned that by now :P Guess I'm a slow learner.

The Cliffs of Insanity!!

I'm going nuts. I must be. I'm fricken insane. What is wrong with me? What more do I need, honestly?! I should be all happy and content and ready to take on the world. But I'm not. Tonight at work I felt downright depressed. As time went on, I went from feeling crappy about having to work 10 hours tonight, to feeling crappy about how things are going in my life. WHY?!! Why can't I get over him?! Why is it that recently he keeps invading my thoughts, invading my dreams? I HAVE a boyfriend--a very nice guy who treats me well. What more do I want?! What more do I need?! Why does this not "cut it?!" Give it time, give it time--I keep repeating to myself. I pace the yellow caution line at work--on one side is a solid, safe path; the other is riskier, I could roll forwards or backwards...move on or regress. ::sigh:: What am I doing? Do I have any clue? Does my life have any direction whatsoever? And how much am I willing to risk? Am I willing to take a chance? UGH...full of questions and partial thoughts and disjointed feelings right now. But...After all, tomorrow is another day.

Dude, she's stacked!

As in, she has stacked...she has stacked all fricken night long. And it was boring...very boring. The only bright side was finishing. And also having someone to talk to. Meanwhile, NYC is powerless without electricity. The generators at the news stations seem to be working just fine :P It's so odd seeing tons of people sleeping in the street or walking in flocks on highways, trying to get home. The largest blackout in North American history. I love the way the news people keep asking if any looting has happened. It's like they are ASKING for people to start looting so they can get more news footage. They probably just want to go to bed, like I do, so they're trying to amuse themselves. Wow, someone in labor...geez, what a day to have a baby. "I hope you're happy, young man/woman. You've been nothing but trouble since the day you were born. I don't have the evidence, but I'm pretty sure that major power outage was your fault."

Locally, nothing really new. I get to work 4pm-2am AGAIN tomorrow. ::sigh:: The only good thing is my parents are camping this weekend, so I can sleep in and relax for the rest of the weekend. Oh yeah, and I've stopped drinking soda--been "clean" for 2.5 days now. It's kind of annoying, but it's better to do without the soda, save some money, and save my poor teeth. My dentist appointment on Tuesday informed me that I should quit drinking soda, especially the worst ones: Mountain Dew and Pepsi, or the decalcinization (something like that) going on in a few of my teeth could lead to cavities within a year. Considering the fact that I've never had a cavity, that bothers me. SO, I'm drinking more juice, water, and milk, and we'll see where that gets me. It's possible that the deterioration is already too far along, but I'm hoping I can do something about it. Of course, I'll have a soda now and then, and just make sure I brush my teeth soon afterwards. I know that cutting back on the soda is probably a good idea anyway since I don't get enough fruit in my diet and juice is probably the best way for someone like me who is not a fan of many fruits. And yes, I realize juice has a lot of sugar in it too, so I have to watch out for that. BUT, it's that folic acid in soda that really gets ya.

Alright, that's enough for tonight. It's almost 4am and I get to go back to work in 12 hours. Bleah...I strongly dislike working. If I could make $10/h + overtime without working, I'd probably choose to do that. But so far, I have yet to discover a way to do that. Let me know if you've found anything like that :) Until then, it's sleepy time. Later ;)

Where are those plans?!

An obscure quote to be sure, but one I enjoy nonetheless. Last night (early this morning) Jenny and I finally figured out a rough plan of where and when we'll be during our time in Europe. Within a week I plan on buying my plane tickets. Next week I'll be paying Cheryl my 2 months' rent for her house in EC. Next week I'll be contacting my cooperating teacher for my student teaching in Altoona. Next week hopefully all my tuition and loan issues will be taken care of. Yep, plenty planned for next week. Now if I can just get through this week...

And I said to myself sit down...

My mind is strange sometimes. It's as though...I can feel something coming. Lately, as in the last few days, I had the song that goes "Sue me, sue, what can you do me. I love you," from Guys and Dolls in my head. I wasn't even positive it was from that musical, though I was fairly sure Nathan Detroit sings it, which he does. I found that out tonight when I was flipping through the tv stations and ran into the last couple hours of the musical. I hadn't watched it since high school--I think after we performed it freshman year at NDA, but not long after. So yeah, sure enough, here I am watching the musical and hearing the song I had in my head, thinking, hm, well isn't that a coincidence. Or maybe tv is just so predictable I knew it was coming from some sort of inlaid pattern of tv scheduling. Who knows?

I really don't know what's wrong with me lately. I think perhaps it's life catching up with me. The school year is coming on, and soon I will be back in EC, only teaching instead of being taught. Granted, I still have a lot to learn...And then after two months, it's off to London. After that, 3 weeks of touring Europe. After that? Yeah...Why am I so concerned about what comes next? Why does it keep resurfacing in my thoughts even though it's months away? ::sigh:: Major decision making time. I suppose that is it. I'm going to be making some very important decisions about my future...things that will decide what I do, where I will be, and WHO I will be and...who I will be with? Too early to think about that...or is it? This thing with Craig--I know it's a good thing. Why am I not more certain about it? I have been more certain about other guys...guys who didn't work out. Like who? Well, Brandon sticks out in my mind. Someone I had a connection with right from the start, someone I thought had some great qualities and was someone worth taking the time for. But it didn't end up that way...me being partly to blame...my impatience. "You can't hurry love." My theme song. I suppose I should remember that now. True love doesn't happen in an instant. I should know that. Who else? I did really like Ryan. You know that. But again, my impatience. I really messed that up...though somewhere inside me, I know that he's not the type who'd stay with someone like me. At least he's not completely pissed at me anymore. Losing friends can really suck. And who else? Well yeah, there's him. But, thinking back, I mean REALLY back, I didn't know I would fall for him. It took YEARS to realize my feelings for him. And it's taking me years to try to forget those feelings.

Tomorrow, well today, is his 23rd birthday. I hope he enjoys himself. ::sigh:: I never dreamed he and I would be at this point in our lives. Years ago...I thought I would marry that guy and always love him. Less than 2 years ago, I had to forget that plan...and then it was rekindled...and then forgotten...and then nearly rekindled...and snuffed out. Ugh, it's not like he was perfect. Far from it. And he's dating someone, has been for months. He must really care about her or he wouldn't bother. Maybe he's even in love. I, I can't seem to get over this curiosity--to know what's going on in his life. I guess, I want him to remain a part of my life, even if it makes it more complicated. I know, I'm dating Craig--and I meant it when I said I would do everything I could to keep from hurting him. I want to give him a chance. And I want him to keep giving me a chance. It's just, it will take more than a month of dating someone--even someone that great--to make me forget the one guy I ever truly loved. And I know that the truth is, I will never forget Mike--he'll always have that special reservation in my heart. He gave me a collection of memories...some of my happiest...and my worst...very worst. I still remember sitting on the couch with him in my living room, hearing him tell me why we cannot be together, hearing his words and seeing the tears streaming from his eyes...and feeling his soft blue jacket on my cheek...smelling his cologne...and kissing him "one last time" so I would not forget what it felt like. How could I want someone who caused me the worst pain in my life to remain in my thoughts? I am a strange breed.

Would I ever get back together with him? I'm not sure I can answer that question. I'm not sure it matters. Is there a point in life when there is no more fork in the road? No diverging path from the one I am on? Would I even have the strength to take the road of the unseen instead of the familiar one? I don't know. And what about him? Would he have the strength and humility to come back--to take the difficult way? Or would he think that way is too impossible for him? Does it matter? Probably not...he has a girl. She's probably a very nice person. Probably someone who will play games with him. Someone who will be the adventurous, sexy, mysterious, smart-ass companion he's always wanted. Should I be sad about that? Should? no. I SHOULD be very happy for him, and happy for me as well, know that then I can finally move on. Can I? What about that stupid lab rat program that's still running? Yeah...I think that rat will always be there, even when I'm happily married with 2.4 kids and a cat and dog and enjoying a wonderful career and friends and family and it's all good...even then...there will a memory of something long ago that was wonderful and sad. I'm so pathetic. But resilient! oh yes, resilient. But, he's my friend. And I'm thankful for that. And I really am glad that he's happy. But if he ever changes his mind, I hope he would tell me...shyeah, right, and monkeys might fly out of my butt. Like he's going to want to retrace his steps and join me on my path to the future...a path that would make him "moderately happy." But..what about what he said? What about him dating others and finding out the truth, finding out what it is like...and then...? Welcome to real life! It doesn't really happen like that. A guy doesn't break up with a girl (repeatedly) and then after dating others think, hm, she really WAS great, how about I just try it again? That's the thing of fairy tales..and what a MESSED UP tale it would be.

Yeah, for all of my education and experience, I know rocks smarter than I am when it comes to love. Sorry to babble on like this. It's just all been on my mind lately. And as I was saying earlier, I think it's because the summer is coming to a close and soon I will have to choose. Once I finish college in December, will I stay a while in GB? Will I move down to Madison? or will I choose Minneapolis? I know which one has the most pull for me...but I can't deny that the other places are pulling me too. If I leave GB,what about my family? and what about...it's like saying...I give up. Giving up would probably be the best thing for me. But I hate giving up. And what about Madison? If Craig is going to school there, wouldn't being in the area give us the best chance? ...and what about my other needs? Minneapolis is where my friends are, my alternate family...the people I CHOOSE to love. Wouldn't it be about time someone chose to be with me instead of the other way around? Why can't he...whoever he is...come be with me? If I am still with Craig, wouldn't it be good for him to have his college experience without my interferance? And me? Shouldn't I go where my future is brightest? OH the confusion :( Months away, I must remind myself.

Please, do not think less of me for this spewing forth of whimpering thoughts and feelings. I just...I had to get it out. I'm not THAT messed up, believe me. I'm just uncertain. And that's okay, simply more complicated. Rest assured, no matter what the future brings: I will not settle. I'll not be brushed aside, misused, complacent, apathetic, or taken for granted, nor will I sacrifice the things I know in my heart I SHOULD be doing with my life for the things on the "quick and easy path." Maybe I am less trying to convince and more trying to remind myself. At least I can rest easier tonight knowing I can trust friends to find some grain of sense from my ramblings and either give me an ear or a swift kick in the rear--whichever seems healthier at the time ;)

The juices are flowing...creative ones, that is

FINALLY!! I updated Meandering Evengale!!! As I mention in a comment, I realize that I haven't written much, and the plot really hasn't advanced, but I assure you it's simply an introduction to what WILL be plot advancement. And if someone has the thought that the place I describe sounds awfully familiar and yet the location is off, well then, yes, you are right to both points. I'm skirting reality, without actually limiting myself by it (or having to be painstakingly detailed...as I can already be...sometimes). Anyway, I thought you might like to know that. I'm hoping to continue writing in ME much more frequently, but Tricia's gotta help out too :) Feel free to work on advancing the story, but it might be a good plan to converse first, or perhaps post without publishing or post, publish and we'll work out the finer points later. Anything goes in that blog, but I do have an idea or two of where that particular episode is going ;)

Anything else? No, not really. Working 2nd shift again this week so that'll be a blast and a half. At least it means sleeping in and getting to go to the dentist on Tuesday. Oh, and if anyone needs some small boxes, say 12x6x6, just ask and ye shall receive. Why do I have 25 corrugated paper boxes that size? It's like Apple Jacks: I just do. Though I can't say I'm a big Apple Jacks fan; they're okay I guess. I prefer Honey Nut Cheerios, Grape Nuts, Froot Loops, and once in a while Rice Krispies or Corn Flakes (with sugar added of course). Why do you need to know that? You just do. And why am I up at 4am blogging? Good question.

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That's how I feel right now. I am soooo smart, volunteering to come in to work 6am-2pm on a Saturday after working 3pm-12am the night before. Yep, S-M-R-T, that's me. ::sigh:: Anyone want to give me a massage? I'll make you cupcakes, REALLY, no foolin.

The tigers come at night

Sometimes I wonder if my mind enjoys spinning in circles. It seems I have a pattern inlaid in my being that tells me to think about this or that at different times in an unending cycle of confusion. I have moments when everything feels just right and I know where my feet are taking me. I have other moments when I feel the swirl of uncertainty around me, reminding me how very little I know and how many unforseen detours these feet have taken. Am I preprogrammed, running the same process over and over again expecting by some miracle to get a new result? Would I be the lab rat that keeps throwing itself into the electric current to get the delicious piece of cheese at the other end of the maze? Does that make the rat resilient or self-destructive or just plain stupid? ::sigh:: So I'm a stupid lab rat, sue me. I'm the rat that sees all the wonderful varieties of cheeses--Swiss, string, Colby, Pepper Jack, Parmesean, Goat, Bree (sp?), Mozzerella, etc.--displayed right in front of her but is still frying her little furry body to a crisp trying to get at the first piece of medium cheddar she laid eyes on. Yep, some obsolete, low frequency processor in the back of my brain refuses to quit running the "Stupid lab rat" program. Someday I'll have to get it upgraded.

Note: No offense meant to lab rats. I'm sure there are plenty of perfectly intelligent lab rats out there.

Working after bar time

It's really sad driving home at 2am, with the streets nearly bare, only the occassional Tuesday night drinker cheerily passing by me who is caked with dried up sweat and paper dust and some smears of grease. Working 10 hours, from 4pm-2am isn't exactly ideal, but I can't say it's much worse than working 9 hours 3pm-12am, since I would be up that late anyway. ::sigh:: My body is pretty tired, but my mind is going and going so I'm trying to keep myself occupied. I nearly threw in Star Wars since I was in the mood, but I resisted the temptation, knowing I'd REALLY be up late then. Only 2.5 more weeks of work left. I almost wish there was more, cuz I know I need the money, but I'm afraid that I really can't manage to work that last week and be ready to move to EC, and see friends, and organize my affairs without that extra week. Not to mention, I need to contact the middle school I'll be student teaching at to find out if I need to get there early to talk with the teacher. EEEK! The school year is coming on fast! So much to do in so little time and so many thoughts running through my mind. Time to watch an episode of Trigun in an attempt to slow down. Later!

Dan and I must be on the same wavelength, I swear

Speaking of Rent, look who's been taking to quoting lines from the musical as I have...and don't say I just copied him cuz I didn't--he copied me...well, okay, he probably didn't and maybe it's suspicious that I start talking about Rent after he does, but well, just poo on you if you don't believe me :P See, he does it not once, not twice, but three times. Which goes to prove what I have always said, RENT rocks :)

On another note, this afternoon I chatted online with both Matt and ex-Mike. Good times, hm? Yeah, I basically told both of them about how I'm seeing Craig, which was okay I guess. Matt sounded a bit disappointed, saying something about how he did like me, but he fucked things up and he feels bad about it. He said he still wants to hang out with me when I get back to EC, so I suppose I could do that. He admits that he still is going to flirt, and I said I can allow that ;) But no fear; I'm going to be a good girl :) And as for Mike, we had a nice little conversation about how the summer is going. He still hasn't found his job yet, but he's working hard at Papa's. Things are going well between him and his gf, so I guess that's good too. I admit that I selfishly somewhat-secretely wish things weren't going well, not because I don't want him to be happy, but because the idea of him with another woman still brings out some color in me. It'll fade eventually...Until then, I just have to remember that it's his life and he is my good friend and I should want what is best for him, not me. Mostly I just kinda miss him and how close we were. But, maybe things are better for me this way, who knows? As it is, Craig is a really great guy, and I'm glad he asked me out. I'm looking forward to getting to know him even better and seeing how things go during the school year. I plan on doing my best to never hurt him. So far so good. He just seems like the kind of guy who would jump through highly elevated spiked hoops of noxious flames to keep from hurting me. That's the kind of guy worth keeping around :)

Forever flicker in close up on the 3D IMAX of my mind

While on my way to MN this weekend, I did something I hadn't done in a very long time--listened to the entire soundtrack of RENT. I had forgotten how much I liked that musical. And I had forgotten how that musical makes me feel. There was a reason why I did not listen to it for a couple years....which should come as no surpise. There are associations with certain songs, the entire musical, and I could not bring myself to listen. But lately I had been humming the tunes in my head at work and I thought that a 4.5 hour drive might be a good time to break the musical silence. The funny thing is, it took me until this weekend while I was feeling introspective to realize what rent meant. There is a song in the musical called "I'll Cover You" and a line in the song says, "I know they meant it when they said you can't buy love, now I know you can rent it. I will lease you on my love." The meaning I took out of it this time, but could not grasp before, is that you cannot own love, you cannot hold on to it...all you can do is rent it for a time. And appreciate that time. ::sigh:: With a thousand sweet kisses...I would have covered him all my life. But all I could do is rent.

Weekend's a comin...and I have yet to pack

Ever fall asleep at 8pm thinking of taking a quick little rest and not wake up til 12am and realize that you haven't packed or done anything to prepare for a weekend out of town? And I didn't make my cupcakes :( Mary's not going to be happy with me. Guess I'll have to do it next week, but then Brian from #6 will be gone and he's the one who keeps bringing up the whole promise to give them some baked goods. I'm GOING to make them sometime this summer. Just a matter of time. Just like it's a matter of time before I pack up so I can leave straight from work tomorrow :P