The Break Up

So I was going to blog about Ireland and many happy occassions. But now that will have to wait until some future posting.

Here are the facts: Today I was told by my bosses that they will be posting my position and accepting interviews for it. They told me they would looking for someone else to fill the position, but I can still apply for it.

Now, let me put that into terms that would be emotionally comparative:

Let's role play. My employer will play the part of one person: "the boyfriend." Instead of the employee, I will be the "girlfriend." Now, I've been seeing this "boyfriend" for almost a year. Almost every day we would interact on a friendly basis, and talk about the future. Then, he takes me aside one day after work, and says we need to talk...

I'm a little nervous due to the formality of it, but still keep myself hopeful that it means something good for our future together. And then he opens up with, "This is hard," which of course is not a positive sign. He asks me, "How do you think this year has been?"
"I think it's gone very well. I've had a great year. Not everything has gone as I had hoped, but I think things will keep improving."
"Well, you know, you're a good girlfriend, but I'm just not sure you're what I need right now. I'm going to see other people."
"Oh, I see."
"You're creative and hard-working, but I need someone who has more experience," the boyfriend says with a sympathetic smile.
"I understand. It's just too bad because I thought you were my dream man. I love being with you and I saw myself growing old with you," the girlfriend starts sniffling and reaches for a tissue.
"It was a really hard decision. I went back and forth with the idea. But I'm just looking for someone who's more of a hard ass."
"I suppose you have to do what's best for you," the girlfriend wonders if he has any idea of what he really needs, knowing a hard ass probably is not going to fare well with him and his friends.
"You can still stick around and see if I pick up anyone else better. If I don't, well, maybe I'll settle for you after all."
"Right," Thanks a lot, asshole. It's as though she has heard that before somewhere.
"I'd be happy to recommend you to some other guys when you meet them."
"Sure," the girlfriend replies. She decides to give up some of her dignity by asking,"Can we still see each other this summer?" After all, she needs the money.
"Yes, we can still do that."
"Okay, well, I should go now." She barely manages to get out of the room before she rushes into the bathroom, sobbing into the sink. As she walks into her room, she realizes that she will still need to see him every day for the next few months, even though they are over now. Every day she will have to see the same guy who has just told her he doesn't want her anymore.
And, she'll have to suck up to him so that she can still have him pay her rent, car insurance, and other daily expenses. She hates being dependent on him for money, especially since this isn't the first time a guy has let her down and left her high and dry. As she gazes at her reflections, she thinks to herself. Maybe I don't want to be with men anymore. They're so fickle and will drop you with no real provocation, even when you're fully devoted to them. "Hm," she thinks, "maybe I need to look somewhere else."

The end. Enjoy the drama? Cuz I sure didn't. Stupid schools. Can anyone say, "Time for possible career change?"