::sigh: and add to that...I'm going home this weekend for the first time since...I'm still not talking to him. Sometimes it's hard, sometimes it's not. Sometimes I get this really sharp pain in the stomach just thinking about how what I once thought was a dream come true has turned into one big messed up nightmare. How is it possible that some people can be so thoughtless, so apathetic to others' feelings? Please, friends, this weekend--let us keep each other too busy to think about all this crap....it'll be a weekend for girls on the town :) There MIGHT be room for a boy if he can manage to behave himself, but I'm not promising anything. aggh, I gotta go.